Thursday, October 12, 2006
In Turmoil
So many things have been going round and round and round my head for the past 24hrs or so i feeel so tired and uncertain of everything...and its so unbelievable tt only barely a day has passed...and i just cant wait for this whole sem to be over...so i can at least get one burden off my head, the stupid work...
Mayb i coud be wrong, but i am quite certain tt God used you to bring me back to Him, i'm thankful for tt, but why must it be u?...juz swayed all my beliefs and values tt i neva thought i would find myself trying to compromise in my head, i think tts bad enuff, and i really wun be suprised if one day i realli make the decision to compromise...but whether its wrong or right or God's will is another thing. 1 and a half weeks back i was so sure i made the right choice, but for the past few days questions have been swarming my mind...full of wad ifs...wad if i compromised...would tt bring one more person to Christ?...in the first place i dun even know if my hunch tt God is giving me this chance to bring you to Christ is correct in anyway AT ALL...and wad if tts juz all an illusion. its driving me crazy sooon. rarrr...
Finally today i felt i finally had a break frm sch work...haven touched my schwork all day...and i went to the wierdest places...like Labrador Park?...music lesson to Ariel and Andre again...Andre is juz driving me mad and more mad...haha...and thru the whole day nth was off my mind...arghhh...plus tt email i received yest...i juz haf so so may things running thru my mind...run run run...
Juannnn [1:14 AM]
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Saturday, September 23, 2006
hall...
Everytime i type here i feeel like sayin its been a long time...but it realli has been and i feel tt i've entered NUS like for forever alr...even though its juz been 2 mths or so...I realised sch is really a stumbling blk for a lot of ppl...in terms of beliefs, values...i believe everyone has their own sets of beliefs and values they thought they would never compromise...but its realli hard when ur forced to make a decision...and there are realli all kinds of ppl frm all walks of life here...
I'm really thankful for tt someone who told me this last yr...even though he may not remember he said those words...he said "Juan, no matter wad u do...dun compromise on ur beliefs and ur faith or values because u know tt God wun shortchange u..." It has really still been in my heart and in my brain all these while...and i guess tts how i managed to keep myself going.
Yest was TGIO...my first rockers performance haha...really had fun with all u guys frm THE POX(copyrighted by Laremy) ! haha...had fun finding our GOTH costumes...and trying all the funny funny stuff...its juz the adrenaline rush tt keeps u going when ur on stage...
anyway its MID SEM BREAK!!! and i'm rushing home now...haha more updates coming sooon =)...
Juannnn [4:24 PM]
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Tuesday, August 15, 2006
School...has started...
yay finally another update after super long...haha been busy arnd NUS b4 i even started sch...but yea yest was thef first day of sch...wierd feeling i got really. like the first time u haf no class, no uniform, and the lecturers dun even care if ur there or not. but the whole place was jammed packed lar...if it goes on like this all the way its crazy!
Hall life is starting to settle after formal dinner yest and the Star to Burst performance...now we're like waking at 6am everyday to train for inter blk sports...but its damn fun lar...get to play sports everyday...and the wierdest thing i ever did was to wake up at 6am to play handball b4 my first day of sch.
ok gotta go shower and lec alr...update more later.r.r.
Juannnn [8:47 AM]
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Monday, July 17, 2006
sth. meaningful...for some unknown ppl.
Got this frm an email...but i think as much as many ppl gets all these mails those tt neeed to read this DUN read this...
The five simple rules to be happy :)
1. Free your heart from hatred.
2. Free your mind from worries.
3. Live simply.
4. Give more.
5. Expect less.
No one can go back and make a brand new start. Anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending.
God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way. Disappointments are like road bumps, they slow you down a bit but you enjoy the smooth road afterwards. Don't stay on the bumps too long. Move on!
When you feel down because you didn't get what you want, just sit tight and be happy, because God has thought of something better to give you. When something happens to you, good or bad, consider what it means. There's a purpose to life's events, to teach you how to laugh more or not to cry too hard.
You can't make someone love you, all you can do is be someone who can be loved, the rest is up to the person to realize your worth. It's better to lose your pride to the one you love, than to lose the one you love because of pride. We spend too much time looking for the right person to love or finding fault with those we already love, when instead we should be perfecting the love we give.
Never abandon an old friend. You will never find one who can take his place. Friendship is like wine, it gets better as it grows older.
i've beeen lagging with a lotta photos huh...better go put them up sooon...
Juannnn [12:11 PM]
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sth. meaningful...for some unknown ppl.
Got this frm an email...but i think as much as many ppl gets all these mails those tt neeed to read this DUN read this...
The five simple rules to be happy :)
1. Free your heart from hatred.
2. Free your mind from worries.
3. Live simply.
4. Give more.
5. Expect less.
No one can go back and make a brand new start. Anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending.
God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way. Disappointments are like road bumps, they slow you down a bit but you enjoy the smooth road afterwards. Don't stay on the bumps too long. Move on!
When you feel down because you didn't get what you want, just sit tight and be happy, because God has thought of something better to give you. When something happens to you, good or bad, consider what it means. There's a purpose to life's events, to teach you how to laugh more or not to cry too hard.
You can't make someone love you, all you can do is be someone who can be loved, the rest is up to the person to realize your worth. It's better to lose your pride to the one you love, than to lose the one you love because of pride. We spend too much time looking for the right person to love or finding fault with those we already love, when instead we should be perfecting the love we give.
Never abandon an old friend. You will never find one who can take his place. Friendship is like wine, it gets better as it grows older.
i've beeen lagging with a lotta photos huh...better go put them up sooon...
Juannnn [12:11 PM]
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Saturday, July 08, 2006
Long long time.e..
seriously long time since i blogged...i think its become my usual start line alr...
juz went for Arts Camp last week...ok i realli dun regret going now...coz i met so many nice ppl frm Tekila! and frm Tigara!...haha...its not the camp itself...but i guess the ppl tt made it all happening for me...and i realli enjoyed myself...minus tt freaky fright night...ok so tt was an experience...
been pretty busy...catching up with chuch frens, AC frens, Sc frens, now Og frens...feeel quite bad tt i haven really been home for so many days...and 30th July's drawing closer and closer...i feel myself slipping away frm the comfort of my room hahaha.
driving test's also in 2 weeks...i'm kinda freaking out...so many wad ifs...but i guess it doesn't really matter how i think right.
the past 6 months...i've juz been thru issues and more issues...sometimes i juz feel so tired i wanna give it all up, but then u think of the consequences and u juz realise u can't...i can't. other ppl might be able to but i juz can't let it go this way. hope things are getting better. at least they look like they are. :)
time to sleeep...i'll upload ALL the photos another day...
Juannnn [2:00 AM]
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Monday, June 19, 2006
rise above the storm
been a while since i typed here...but so so much has happened, i also dunno wad to type and where to start frm...
well church camp was like a time for me to revive my frenship with the YE ppl...i feeel like i haven hung out with them for super long...mayb coz of my main service sessions...the whole camp i juz had a lot of mixedfeeelings...gd and bad i guess. it was an experience staying in the Male VIP changing room...with a whole bunch of girls ironically. the male toilets stink...like SERIOUSLY BAD haha. games were super fun...mayb coz this time so many youths turned up...but somehow i had to get my toe nail kicked off by some uncle during soccer right on the first day...tt din stop me frm playing my floorball! haha.
its been like a yr and a half since i kinda led a "group" in discussion and all, and i'm really quite relieved MOST of my group(note MOST) were quite proactive and enthu haha. hope u guys took sth home frm the group sessions and the messages. The speaker was able to connect with the younger ppl as well as the older ppl i felt...how we should be walking on the right track most of the time n not sit or stand.
somehow i feel, isn't it everyone's goal in life to be happy? i mean who doesnt want to. right?... but sometimes the fine line between relationships and frenships creates probs...mayb ppl juz assume too much. i realli dun like the word assumption. i prefer sth more definitive. one thing i learnt is to rise above the storm...its then that u can see the big picture...sometimes letting go may not b a bad thing, prevents u frm suffering, n more probs frm surfacing. Ultimately, be secure in Him...i mean wadeva's happening all arnd u...its all planned alr. anyway right? so no matter wad u do most probably u'll find urself back on the same path, so why put urself thru tt turmoil. i mean sometimes we all can't help it, after all we're only human, and one of our weakest links are our emotions and this is not really a time to decide betweeen head over heart or vice versa...so...i'll juz see where He takes me...
Juannnn [2:09 AM]
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Wednesday, May 31, 2006
Funn!
So i gave up milo tourn in KL to help out in the pathlight autistic childrens camp. and i really dun regret. :) the kids there reali brighten ur day. first day went to ECP to cycle skate scoot and fly kite with them...and yest we went to sentosa for LUGE rides where i almost dieded then frisbee and volleyball...and today the highlight...KAYAKING! super shiok..haha but Iqbal juz went mad on my kayak and said he doesnt wanna go back to shore until we capsize...
theres juz sth diff. abt looking after autistic kids tt makes it much more fun...like Daniel who talks non stop to himself abt blue whales and sharks and wadnot...and Qin Yuan who goes after this girl called Sherry and talks abt sesame street and batman all day long...i'm starting to miss camp alr
when u haf no time to think. i think its the best time...to be able to be kept busy and happy.
Juannnn [11:26 PM]
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